In the Not Too Distant Future...

So good news for those of you following our adoption! Our paperwork is safely in Eastern Europe and is being processed! This means we could start this travelling extravaganza mid-November and have her home by Mid- December God willing! This is majorly exciting! And on another hand, it's made the resolution on the picture of life (and you wonder why my prized possession is my camera) come into focus some more.

I'm actually gonna be in Eastern Europe (yes, I hate not getting to tell you the actual country as well). I knew I was gonna be on a plane for 12 hours give or take. I knew I was gonna be over there for about 6 weeks or so getting our sweet Jen out of her old life (on paper and mentally) so she could transition into the new one awaiting her in the U.S. But then, my mental lens focused when I didn't expect it to.

I'm gonna be thousands, maybe even millions of miles away from the town I've grown up in since I was 7 1/2. I'm gonna be LIVING in Eastern europe. SMELLING Eastern Europe. TASTING Eastern Europe. Hearing it. We will probably be there in a season of perpetal snow (and this boy from the 9 month arctic of NY says Yeah!), where we will be driven at 90 mph through the snowy roads to get to her orphanage. Jenny will probably flow with most things, but eventually she's gonna wonder "What the heck are these two people who I don't really know doing with me?"

and oh, yeah...

This isn't some far-off dream anymore. This is serious reality here. She'll be home soon God willing. I know no amount of pictures or anything is gonna prepare me for the gut-wrenching sights that await my oblivious eyes in that tiny little place known as a Eastern European Orphanage. But I'm more than excited; this is gonna be a new experience for me.

In a very short while, 
I will have gone miles, 
and miles away from my home.

My ears will hear sounds,
my eyes see small towns, 
All over the country that holds
My new little sister, 
and, oh, how we've missed her
More than she'll ever know. 

We'll wrap her and hold her,
where love will enclose her,
and she can be safe and sound.

And home we will come, 
To where all begun and 
Jenny will finally  be ours.

Back in Action

Well, no weekend lasts more than 48 hours. No weekend of late has been without insanity either :)

I don't think there is a such thing as a "Bad" Weekend at the Seminary. It's great there no matter what. I always have a good time, even if I'm not well-rested (note to self: old stone buildings get insanely stuffy because of heating at night. DO NOT bring flannel pajamas unless you want to sweat like a pig).

On a slightly more pleasant note, I've assembled a slideshow I'm really proud of (I've learned to master photoshop. Yay!)


Dunwoodie Garden Slideshow Final Cut from Caleb Lococo on Vimeo.

Anyway, today was my little brother's Confirmation. I came up early from my Prep weekend to make it, and I was also gonna be serving. needless to say, it was gonna be a day.

3 of us sharp lookin' men (fourth behind the camera) in sized order. I think this is my favorite picture of all of us boys.

Then came the mass. The church was packed. Insanely. We literally had almost no room left by the end. The whole morning, I had promised myself  I wouldn't get nervous. But as we were lining up (I was carrying the cross and was gonna have a lot of eyes staring at me) I could feel that weakness creeping into my legs. We made it through the mass with flying colors, and afterwards we headed over to the restaurnt where my parents had their wedding reception and Gab had her Communion Brunch (after her first communion in June).

Another great, packed weekend indeed. Now, though, I'm tired.

A Little Getaway

Tomorrow I'll be heading down to another Cathedral Prep Weekend down at the Seminary. I'm not just happy to be getting down there again and hanging with all of my friends down there, I'm ready for a little getaway.

It's not that I'm tired of being at home or anything, but I'm excited to have some fresh air to breathe. I'm ready to have some quiet time alone with Jesus. To get to be in a place where he so easily stays on my mind all day. I'm happy to be able to laugh with some friends I treasure so much. Besides that, I'll have my little brother's Confirmation on Sunday that will hold plenty of warm moments. This weekend is going to be a time of sanctum for me to regroup and prepare for next week and get a fresh start to things. But on another hand, my mind will always be here: on the crazy things Addisu will do when I have to get him in his Toy Story PJ's, on hearing my Dad playing Guitar, on how soon our adoption will be complete now that we have our Dossier off to Eastern Europe.

There are worries, though, as well. People, do some serious praying. While I haven't heard from them where things are at right now. my dear friends the Hooks are possibly facing and end to their adoption because of a Judge who doesn't like us Americans adopting saving their children from institutionalized misery. My heart is going to crumble if they lose their sweet Evan. I have seen them shed so much blood, sweat and tears working to bring this little girl home. Pray that, if the decision has not been made, that their judge's heart be turned. This will be waying heavily on my mind and heart as  I spend a lot of time in prayer.

All in all though, Im ready for my quiet little room and waking up to the sunlight shining through the trees into the window on Saturday morning. I have no idea what God has planned for me this weekend. Maybe this will be the time whne I finally hear His voice, or maybe I'll have some long-forgotten prayer answered. Its going to be a great little getaway indeed.

"Quiet, stillness, all so intuitive,
 The light that is breaking through.
 The perfect calm, the peace without qualms,
that this is only a temporary thing. 
This peace and this joy, 
Both withot a ploy, 
To block me away from the truth.
Because this is what's real, though it feels surreal
It's just 'cause its God and its Heaven. 
And though my time there, may feel oh so rare,
It is the perfect getaway."

Mockingjay- worth praise or.. Mocking?

Well friends, I've finished it. I have read every Hunger Games book. Now here's my summary and review. This will contain major spoilers at times, so skim with caution if you ever intend to read the books.

Chaos. Destruction. Revelation. Three words that best describe the ending of Catching Fire, were we last saw our beloved Katniss Everdeen. Katniss, in the heat of the moment, blew up the force-field surrounding the arena of the Quarter Quell Hunger Games using the trick her fellow tribute (and former victor) Beetee taught her. Just when she thought she was in for it, she learned more than she could have imagined. District 13, thought to have been obliterated years ago, is still in existence. All of the tributes in the Quarter Quell, except her and Peeta, were in on a plan to keep both of herself and Peeta alive at all costs to defy the power of the Capitol. The problem is, they only half succeeded. Peeta's been taken captive by the capitol Forces. And, oh, by the way, Katniss' little stunt has decimated her home of District 12, and the few lucky enough to survive, including her mother, little sister Prim and best friend Gale, are now safe in 13. Katniss should feel some sense of relief, but she doesn't. Back in Panem, the Capitol is trying to use Peeta as a lure to draw Katniss in as they inflict much torture on him. Katniss is also finding while she may be out of the hands of the sinister President Snow, she is becoming just as much a pawn for the cause in 13. Besides that, who will Katniss chose to give her heart to, if she can even live that long?

I'm gonna say it again; Collins has constructed a uniquely masterminded series I found myself reaching for constantly. You're gripped by what will happen to the characters, especially since you know that this is it. This book is definitely a full-on tale of war set against the backdrop of romance, as opposed to the other way around ,which is how the last two have been written. You certainly feel Katniss' emotions ebb and flow. When a character dies, there's a clear sense of loss and sacrifice that shakes you. Everyone, from Finnick to Peeta to Katniss to their team of Rebel commandos they join in the Capitol, to even Gale ,show self sacrifice  For all the controversy, I thought it all ended pretty well. Despite the fact that Katniss, even as an adult mother, was still struggling against the trauma of  the year we followed her so closely for, it was clear her Romantic choice (whom I will not say) and her children were giving her the strength to carry on and heal.

That said, let me list my few minor complaints here: Death. There's a lot of it, sometimes pretty gory. While its not the gore that bugged me, the constant death of a lot of characters (some of them key characters) didn't give us time to sit back and enjoy them much. While scenes such as Finnick and Annie's wedding are tender and heartwarming, moments of healing, while existent, are a little few and far between. You don't get a lot of time to, er, smell the roses (actually, you probably don't wanna, so maybe that's better :D) The whole death thing is taken to a new level when (HUGE SPOILER ALERT!) Prim is killed by one of Beetee and Gale's contraptions in the chaos of war. While I get the fact that something needed to really break between Katniss and one of the two guys in her life (Peeta and Gale) for her to live happily ever after with one of them, it seemed a little extreme from my point of view. Beyond my personal biases though, here are the actual things to look out for: Morphine, whose name was botched into Morphling sometime between nowadays and the time of the books, is used pretty frequently on patients. While its necessary at first to calm the extreme trauma most of them are processing, most sneak a couple extra doses because they become addicted for a time. Katniss is NOT excluded from this drug fest. As I stated before, the violence gets pretty gory. I would not recommend anyone under 13 read this series because it is literally a metaphor for Iraq, WWII and other such bloodbaths. On that note, some people have related the malignant effects of the war in Panem to the war in Iraq, and if you're one to pick up metaphors and double entendres, it won't take long. Besides that, though, the only problem is, in the end, a slight detail that is pretty left to interpretation. It's never made clear if Katniss and Peeta get married (SPOILER!) before they have their two kids. while they're basically living alone in 12, there are certainly other inhabitants. This is, I guess, a morally grayed ending for a morally gray thread of the story. While there is certainly no doubt that they love each other and would sacrifice anything for each other, the fact that its never placed just how far they take their relationship (obviously once they have kids it is) or just how committed to each other they are can be interpreted  a number of ways.

So in the end,  I whole-heartily recommend the series. Your not gonna find anythingn like it, and certainly nothing as gripping. It makes you think twice about what you would do in their situation, and, for all its issues, delivers a great storyline as well.

Farewell Hunger Games trilogy!

Of Bracelet Sales and Hard-Hitting Gospels

So friends, its been a while. I must admit I'm doing rather poorly at this "do schoolwork and have enough energy to blog" thing. So here's a post long overdue; our Hardscrabble Day Bracelet Sale!

So before I go any further,  we've passed USCIS (Immigration) a little while ago and are anxiously awaiting the aposteleed copy so we can send off or Dossier to Eastern Europe! I am eager to share what country we're going through with y'all, but until then, it's just Eastern Europe.

So back to the main story here: our little Bracelet Sale. I live in a community that I swear is one of the most high functioning ones located in Middle of Nowhere, NY. That's not literally our name, but we are literally in territory just catching up with the 21st century. Some of the seminarians I meet from the city area call my area "God's country" Because its literally that untouched. I love it that way. We still have little town celebrations that are really just a reason for the community to get fancied up and enjoy our pristine weather while little vendors around town try and make a few extra $$. Most of the time, my family doesn't do a stand or hang around too long, but we figured it was a good chance to do some fund-raising and get the word out about Reece's Rainbow. So we had some rubber bracelets made up, did up some posters to put on our table, and baked some cookies to sell on the side.

   Me, My Dad (taking the pic for me) and my little bro got there about an hour early to set up our wares. In the end unfortunatley we had to put the posters on the ground and block our little banner, but we still would've won presentation. :)

We had a LOT of bracelets to sell. Unfortunately I can't tell you we had none left over by the end of the day, but we sold a good 35 or 40% of them. The day progressed and it was beautiful. We had plenty of people ask what we were doing, some buy cookies, others bracelets, others donations. In between we had plenty of time to walk around and see what else was going on. Whiel there wasn't anything real intersting,  I did spot these...

Sorry People, but toy geek+Lord of the rings fan+ $3 apiece for rare figures is a deathly equation that only results on lightening of wallet :D.

While I didn't have 1500 bucks spare, me and a friend did have fun fake-riding a sweet custom chopper:

                     Geeky? Poor immitation of a tough Motorcycler? Nah, not at all :D

The whole day was worth it though, because I got to spend time with my family fighting for a cause we love passionately. And I got to see this little guy:

What a CUTIE! I love him so much I almost squeezed the life out of him when I saw him. To think that this was only two years ago...

Both two Years younger, me about 2 feet shorter, and he was just getting his first teeth in (and testing them on my shoulder :D )

By the end of the day, we had made about $200. While this was good, and we just dropped the whole thing into our adoption fund, I don't think we made a whole lot in profit. I was really feeling kinda bummed. We had worked hard to pull this together, and we were only getting a small amount of what we'd hoped for. It felt like we had made it through the day but only accomplished half the victory. Still, we had our adoption fund with 200 more dollars in it, so I wasn't entirely bummed.

I got an answer to something I wasn't expecting an answer for the next day in Church. I was still mulling the events of yesterday all over in my head. I tend to mull just about anything over in my head, sometimes for hours or even weeks or years on and off. The Gospel reading was one that didn't come to mind immediatley when I heard it. I've memorized what most of the stories that are in the Gospel Proclamation at Mass are throughout the year. But this one didn't immediatley come to me. It was a Parable Jesus told of a beggar named Lazarus. He had open sores all over his body. Dogs and flies would come and eat away at and lick them. And while this man suffered in pain, The man inside the house Lazarus lay outside of was rich. He partied it up, ate well, stayed healthy. And when he died, he didn't end up where he thought he would. And he saw Lazarus standing next to god in Heaven. While our Parish Priest could have taken this into a "care for the poor people around you" talk, he shined the light on a facet of the story I hadn't thought about; the man who got the short end of the stick on Earth had gotten the big prize in heaven for suffering graciously. But Father took it a step further: "So what does this show us?" He asks the crowd. "This shows that as part of being a good Christian and a good Catholic, we have to suffer."

Say WHAT now?

You've got to be kidding me, I thought. This is gonna loop around to be some wacky metaphor. But there was no denying he had meant it. This kind of confused me for a minute. Aren't the choice people the people that gets the good side? That bathes in hot tubs, gets fed shrimp and all that jazz (metaphorically speaking)?

Uh, no.    

As I thought about it more, it made sense though. For one, Scripture points it out. Two, no athlete wins the Olympics without an insane amount of physical pain and exertion. So it's really no pain, no gain then?

Well, Kinda.

It's way beyond that. It's the fact that we have to work on other things too. Not too many Wall Street brokers get rich and then convert to Christianity on the spot. This world is, as St. Paul literally put it, our race to the finish line. You can't know the true satisfaction of winning the race if you haven't trained. If I decided to go out and run a 5k today I wouldn't be ready because I hadn't trained. In the same way, the people who don't prepare for Heaven can't reach it. We have to know what it is to trust God, with our everything. so, we may not have made as much as I would've liked at the Bracelet Sale, I'll trust God knows where we'll get the money for it and that he'll provide.

I've been thinking it's about time ,To win the war that fights against all the lies invading my mind

You have brought me to my senses. Even though You built this world to shake, You still love me in a personal way, so I think it's time to leave my doubt behind


There's so much more than meets the eye or what's going on inside
I believe in something way beyond myself
Like the wind that moves the leaves
Lord You move me to my knees
Giving in something way beyond myself

Newsboys, "Way Beyond Myself"

"Cause' All I Want Is To be In the Light"

Well, my readers, it has been a while indeed. Forgive what I think has been the biggest absence since my week @ Camp Veritas. So here's the catch up:

Adoption World: Woo Hoo! We're finally approved by USCIS and our letter is off to Albany to be stated apostileed. After that it's Eastern Europe or Bust :D! Tomorrow is a little fundraiser for the adoption at a local community day selling some of those trendy rubber bracelets (That'll get coverage here, don't worry :) ).

Otherwise,  I guess that's what's led me to blog tonight. I'm gonna say this right off. I LOVE my homeschooling program. It's probably one of the best educational experiences I've ever had. But it is a LOT of work. At the end of the day, I feel pretty drained. Blogging? I've sat in front of Office Word for so many hours typing things up my pupils are gonna dilate if I look at another Computer screen. So I end up reading some, muddling through my evening and night prayers and crashing directly afterward. I know,  it's just gonna take getting used to, but right now it certainly seems like a tiring week for the most part.

However, one thing keeps me going throughout my days; music. I LOVE music. I think I'd lose about half of my life if I lost music. I have it one most of the time unless I just feel too overstimulated and need some silence while I work. From Day to day, my musical hunches vary. But for almost every day this week, one song has stuck in my mind: In the Light by DC Talk.

To give you a little background on who they are (in case you don't know), DC Talk is one of those legends of music that transcended everything. They were christian (all the members were as well) artists, they were rappers, the were hip hoppers, they were rockers. Short-lived as their fame may have been, it garnered a couple Grammys and one (maybe two) certified Gold Records. While the band may have broken up, two of their three members have stood tall in the music world regardless: Tobymac, a guy  I majorly admire as a musician and a Christian, and Michael Tait, who just joined up with other well-known Christina Boy Band the Newsboys. Their music, however, has remained high among the memorables and is still pretty played. Their two biggest hits were Jesus Freak (trust me, its good) and In the Light (case in point).

A lot of work can sometimes get our minds off God. Even though I'm using a Catholic homeschooling program and I certainly have plenty of God-centered topics in my work, after a while it starts to just seem like work. I get to the point where when I think back on my day and what I let my work do to me, I really despise what  I see.

The Song Talks precisely about that. To be precise, the chorus goes; "What's going on inside of me? I despise my own behavior" It was a pretty solid statement as I started dwelling on the lyrics. IT jsut continued to echo me;

"This only serves to confirm my suspicions.
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior! I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens!
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light"

It was so true. I really wanted to be in the light keeping my mind on God as I worked. "Ora et Labora," or Pray and Work, as St. Benedict says.

The song is down in the playlist. Just scroll down and sink in the lyrics. Because I think we all want to be in the light.

Deserving

"Oh, you really deserve that vacation." "I don't feel any compassion for you, you deserved that." They didn't deserve to lose their house in that fire."

Deserving. We think about it a lot. In a general sense, and in a personal sense as well. We think of what we believe we should get, what others should get (good or bad) for what they do. In some senses we shouldn't think about it. Scripture points out that not only should we not judge, but if we don't we're literally doing justice even more than judging someone from our perspective. But there are some perspectives where its perfectly logical.

Case in point: as I was talking with a friend last night. She told me about a story she had heard a speaker give at a retreat. It went a little like this:

Haiti. Rivaling Hurricane Katrina for the sheer amount of destruction it caused, the Earthquake that occurred about six months ago brought missionaries, humanitarians, emergency relief workers and droves of other volunteers to try and resurrect what they could of the city of Port au Prince and save those who were still alive. This speaker was one such missionary. The church they had been sent to help, while still stood in parts, had not been entered by a soul since the Earthquake for fear that it would cave in on them. The church was now holding their services on the broken gravel outside the building, and this man was helping out. On one Sunday, a little girl from the congregation went over to him and wrapped around his leg. "What's your name?" he asked. She said it was Lovely. Indeed it was. This little girl was literally the last living member of her family. All of them had died in the tumult of the Quake. "Where do you sleep?" He asked. She pointed at the ground beneath them. After trying to rephrase and reiterate the question multiple times, he realized she was really telling the truth; she literally slept on the gravel they were standing on. "The only difference," he said to the crowd my friend was sitting in back in the U.S., "between my daughter who is the exact same age and that little girl, was that she was born in Haiti, and my daughter was born in America."

Almost immediately the thought rushed to my mind. "Why did that girl not deserve the life that man's daughter has?" She's probably twice more deserving of it then most Americans who don't know what the term " 3rd world nation" means. Oh, no. There's that word again. Now while it's a little different to want a good life for a little girl  in Haiti as compared to wanting your personal Justice to be served, it's till wanting what you may think is right, and there's a much better answer: they are where they are because of God's plan. There are all things we think we deserve or want. But as Steven Curtis Chapman so expertly put it "God is God, and I am not. I can only see a part of the picture he's painting. God- is God and I am man, so I'll never understand it all, for only God is God." We are all part of a larger plan. It breaks his heart to see his daughter sleeping on the cold gravel at night, but its part of His plan. That story could have inspired a future missionary. God is giving us what we desrve or need to deserve to fill out His greater plan. I could sit for hours and question things. What did I do to deserve this, or what did that person do to deserve that? Frankly, it wouldn't matter. God knows what he's doing. He wants us to know that all of these tough things are the little black dots that mix into a more beautiful color that's part of the bigger picture. and that ultimately, we'll gain His ultimate prize for following his will:

Heaven.